Where were you when you were first introduced to the world of integers?
For me, it was 7th grade in my pre-algebra class at Walsh Middle School in Framingham, MA.
My teacher was Mrs. Sewell, and even though it was the early 80’s, she still donned gaudy polyester suits with an powdery white beehive hair-do stacked impossibly high on her head, held together by multitudes of hair pins (probably strategically placed by way of some mathematical equation, I can only speculate).
And I do recall the faint clack of Mrs. Sewells ill-fitting dentures as she introduced us wide-eyed 12 and 13 year olds to the concept of integers, and all of the rules that went along with adding, subtracting, multiplying, and dividing them.
Of course, at the time I could have cared less, and only paid attention to the extend that I needed to to understand and pass the darn quizzes (truthfully, I was probably day dreaming about Duran Duran through most of this), but as I grew older, and certainly as I embarked upon the path of awakening, Spirit revealed to me one of these rules with integers that actually gives us glimpse into a powerful metaphysical truth:
When adding positive and negative integers, the sum, is determined by subtracting them, with the sign determined by which is greater, the positive or negative, depending on which is greater.
So, how is this a powerful metaphysical truth and what in the world has this got to do with your Twin Flame, or anything else, for that matter??
The relevance here is to highlight the power of our subconscious thoughts and beliefs, and how they have the power to cancel out our conscious beliefs and desires.
It is the primary reason we do not manifest what we want in life, and it accounts for many of our difficulties in our relationships, both with our Twin Flame and with others.
All of us carry within our unconscious minds programming that we pick up from our past lives, from our families, from the collective mind, and from our reactions to our own life experiences.
Just like a computer program that gets installed on your hard drive. These programs run on autopilot at all times, and we do not realize they are there. We only see the end results (or the sum), manifested as lack, unfufilment, self looping patterns of self defeat.
For example, when we were younger, we may have had a parent that was emotionally distant and unavailable to us. Because childhood is the primary time in our journey where these programs become installed, we receive the message that “Love is Unavailable”. It is installed in the hardware of our brain, that this is how love is. And it is not true or real, but because the subconsious cannot tell the difference, it sets us up as the lens through which we view our world.
Then we embark upon the path of awakening, and begin with our affirmations, creative visualization, etc, to manifest the love and partnership we consciously desire.
And what often happens is we manifest partners who may even at first seem to be the man or woman of our dreams…but then, before we know it, they become emotionally unavailable and distant toward us.
This is because we our positive thoughts are being subtracted away from by negative programming. So when we send out the positive affirmation, or vision that we desire to create for ourselves, it comes up against this negative programming, and we get….well, and error message if you will.
This is an example of the negative unconscious belief added to the postive conscious belief, cancelling that negative belief out because it is greater…and it is greater, because we do not even realize it is there. We only see the “sum” in our virtual reality.
We see this dynamic played out on our Sacred Partnerships, as our Beloved mirroring things back to us that anger, or sadden us (the sum), when in all actuality, your Twin Flame has not really hurt you.
They are only triggering an unresolved hurt or deeply repressed belief that is already there, bringing it up for you to be released so you can have the postive!!
The only way we can have this release is to stop blaming and projecting our unconscious and shadow stuff on our Twin Flame and own how we are feeling as a symptom as something much deeper going on within us.
We must be willing to be honest with ourselves, and explore the relationships we had with our families of origins and other early childhood experiences.
Here is a simple exercise that you can do to access the subconscious mind to pinpoint what the nature of your programming is. When you are in discord, anger, or sorrow with your Twin, or any other situation that seems to be repeating itself, and moving you from your calm center and into sorrow, hurt, anger, betrayal, etc
- Disconnect yourself from identifying with the feelings or reacting.
- Close your eyes and roll your eyes up in your head. This opens up the subconscious mind, where needed information can be accessed.
- Ask yourself, either aloud or quietly, “What was the very first situation where I learned that love has to feel like this ?”
- And then listen inward. Pay attention to the gut feelings, visions, and memories that come. Write them down. They will provide clues to you about what the nature is of the program that needs deleting.
- To delete them you can ask your Angels/Higher Self/Divine to help you, or find a Lightworker that specializes in removing negative thoughts and beliefs from your energy field and subconscious.
Once the negating energies and beliefs are gone, you will find your affirmations, and manifesting happen at a much more accelerated rate, without the “greater negative” cancelling it out.
However, know that just by understanding what you’re truly dealing with is enough to give you power over it running your life on auto pilot.
So please know, if the Universe seems to be conspiring against your true hearts desires, that is never the case.
You are simply being given the opportunity to “return to Middle School”, and transform the integers of your inner most being!
See, Mrs. Sewell? I was paying attention!!
Namaste and Christ Bless,